The Weight & Freedom of Ownership

Moving forward from the EVOX session, It forced me to reflect on the things I’ve carried my entire life—fear of rejection, the buried sense of worthlessness, the belief that no matter how hard I worked, it would never be enough.

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It’s wild to realize that the little boy inside me—has still been running so much of the show.

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When I look at my business, the last few years—they’ve been hard. Opportunities have fallen through—countless times. I’ve had individuals who claim to be aligned, show me their true colors. And I’ve got a chip on my shoulder about it.

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Here’s the truth. I victimized myself by expecting others to meet the standard I hold for myself. That’s on me.

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The reality is, those people were mirrors—reflecting back the parts of me I hadn’t healed. They were never meant to stay. They were meant to expose something in me I couldn’t see.

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Now, I can be grateful for them. Because through them, I saw myself.

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I saw how the little boy in me—afraid of rejection—still kept me playing small. That old wound made me shrink from the opportunities I should’ve claimed. I told myself hard work & consistency were enough—but deep down, I was just protecting a wound that kept me from owning my worth.

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And that wound didn’t just affect me.

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My wife & daughter—they’ve sacrificed too. They believed in me through seasons I barely believed in myself. They endured the tight months, the risk & the grind, trusting in my vision when I was still quietly doubting.

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That’s a hard pill to swallow. But now I see it. Now I know where it came from.

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And that awareness has led to ownership.

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Yeah—I walked away from that building. But it brought me to a space that’s more aligned than ever.

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Yeah—I lost some people. But I gained something valuable from those losses. They taught me what I no longer need to carry.

And now, the people around me are different. They bring peace, add value & they feel right—like they’re aligned with where I’m headed, not where I’ve been.

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So for those things that didn’t progress, that’s okay. I’m grateful. It wasn’t meant to move forward in that direction. That season was meant to teach me what I needed to learn—so I could pivot.

So I don’t blame them—

I thank them for the powerful role they played in my life.

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This was part of the process.

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I don’t need to be angry, nor do I need revenge. I just need truth, healing & to move forward.

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Because when I really looked at the anger I’ve been carrying, I realized it wasn’t even about them.

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It was toward myself.

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I wanted to hurt those people, win every last word & knock some fucking heads off.

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But that’s not healing. That’s still the little boy trying to control a situation he never had power over.

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Now? I protect him differently.

Not with rage—but with truth & ownership.

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That ownership—it’s heavy. But it’s also one of the most freeing things I’ve ever experienced.

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I’m not carrying all this just to stay stuck.

I’m carrying it to move forward—& to conquer everything ahead.

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#RelentlessPursuit